Is true love out there?
Cause my eyes are open
But they need help to see
Is she looking at me?
Is she right in front of me?
Is she in far future waiting for me?
I guess we will see eventually
I have no wishes
Because what i would wish for
Can't be forced
Not by hand, not by magic
Love is a force on it's own
It finds you when it wants
It leaves you when it wants
Somehow it's everywhere
Yet when i want it
It's never there
Every year i get a crush
And every year it turns out
They never looked at me
The way i looked at them
Yet somehow everytime
I'm crushed
They find a relationship within a few weeks
And so my mind connects many dots
And rants within its own rant
A look into my mind
A look into my soul
A look into my heart
Wishing for a brighter future
Wishing for a better tomorrow
Wishing to drown my sorrow
Wishing to be with her
Will tomorrow be better for me?
Will I find the love I seek?
Will I stop being socially weak?
Will she see what I see?
There is something I need
It's elusive
It can be said in one word
But not explained by one thousand
It is a part of live
An emotion, an intuition
A source of happiness
A source of pain
It is love
A lone tear rolls down my cheek
Like the loneliness inside
Filled sorrow and denied wishes
Playing the game of solitary
Only one player allowed
While the world watches
But doesn't dare to break the rules
And join me
Some impulses break me free
From my own solitary confinement
And I try to speak
But I get silenced
Or ignored
Always
I gave you my heart
You gave nothing back
As time passed
You wasted my feelings
By only returning
empty feelings
I can't take it
That you only see me
when no one else is around
I'm just there to fill in
Until other people come
Then I lose your interest
And I fade out again
I don't want to see you
But I can't help myself
Some feelings
Just won't stop
I'm lost in my sea
Of emotions and illusions
I'll find my way
If i just can resist the siren song
Is true love out there?
Cause my eyes are open
But they need help to see
Is she looking at me?
Is she right in front of me?
Is she in far future waiting for me?
I guess we will see eventually
I have no wishes
Because what i would wish for
Can't be forced
Not by hand, not by magic
Love is a force on it's own
It finds you when it wants
It leaves you when it wants
Somehow it's everywhere
Yet when i want it
It's never there
Every year i get a crush
And every year it turns out
They never looked at me
The way i looked at them
Yet somehow everytime
I'm crushed
They find a relationship within a few weeks
And so my mind connects many dots
And rants within its own rant
A look into my mind
A look into my soul
A look into my heart
Wishing for a brighter future
Wishing for a better tomorrow
Wishing to drown my sorrow
Wishing to be with her
Will tomorrow be better for me?
Will I find the love I seek?
Will I stop being socially weak?
Will she see what I see?
There is something I need
It's elusive
It can be said in one word
But not explained by one thousand
It is a part of live
An emotion, an intuition
A source of happiness
A source of pain
It is love
A lone tear rolls down my cheek
Like the loneliness inside
Filled sorrow and denied wishes
Playing the game of solitary
Only one player allowed
While the world watches
But doesn't dare to break the rules
And join me
Some impulses break me free
From my own solitary confinement
And I try to speak
But I get silenced
Or ignored
Always
I gave you my heart
You gave nothing back
As time passed
You wasted my feelings
By only returning
empty feelings
I can't take it
That you only see me
when no one else is around
I'm just there to fill in
Until other people come
Then I lose your interest
And I fade out again
I don't want to see you
But I can't help myself
Some feelings
Just won't stop
I'm lost in my sea
Of emotions and illusions
I'll find my way
If i just can resist the siren song
I follow no leader
I follow no group
I follow no fashion
I follow no hype
I follow me
I walk my own path
Let no one change my path
If that means I walk alone
I'll walk alone
Into the unknown
Into the fire of life
Into the darkness of the world
Alone
Yes i'm still alive and brought you some more of my poetry.
Love it, hate it. I don't care.
But while you're reading this answer me this:
Can the truest form of Christianity exist in a capitalist society? Wouldn't be more suited for a communist society (without the part where faith is forbidden)?
To whatever people read this. Which is probably very few.
Had to reinstall windows a few days ago, because of some lame virus.
Got the important things backed up and wiped my hdd clean.
Everything is working again now, which is nice.
Also before that we went to Schiermonnikoog (link for those who don't know anything about it:http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schiermonnikoog) where I learned I quite like the sea.
This friday I spilled some milk on my iPod and at first it would only boot into recovery mode.
Some hours later it worked again only to find a weird spot that was darker then the rest of the screen, not a big problem. Again hours later my touchscreen won't respond at all. So I'm gonna have it fixed, and now I'm left with my trusty Creative Zen. Only now I'm once again plagued with music storage issues.